Tragic events shake our lives, disturb everything that's
known to be, and reshape (for better, I believe, even as
deceiving as it might appear) our selves.
Where is she? She is back to a higher level of
consciousness; back from finishing a stage in this dense
existence, what we call our world. Her legacy is in all the
sharing that she did with her family and friends. It was a
proof of her love which is her soul; the love all our souls
share.
When a loving person comes to our life, it enriches it and all
blooms. When this person is gone from our time and space
we must be thankful for having them, from having had the
chance to learn from them, from having had the chance to be
loved by them. Physical separation is painful beyond words.
But, I believe it exposes the illusory nature of this world by,
throwing us, in an instant, into such emptiness that it
becomes even impossible to breathe. All the material things
lose their worth in comparison.
She does know what happened and she does know it all
beyond what we can even imagine or understand. If there is
anything that may make her transition difficult, our prayers
will help her soul to rise and our hearts to understand all of
this. Our thoughts are too vulnerable to the notion of time.
They keep us either ahead or behind, but always away from
the "here and now." Our minds are designed to go forever
in circles. It is our minds which root us into this illusion of
the world; they make us go through a roller coaster of
expectations, judgments, disappointments, anger, sadness,
fears and as a result it takes us away from love. Only our
hearts are forever understanding. The only thing that is
timeless and worthwhile is Love. The love your mom feels for
you and you for her, the love that brought you and Richie
together, that love that makes Ivory and I think about you,
the love Cindy gave you as a friend...it is all that matters...it
is the only source of understanding.
If you can't stop thinking about it, do it only with nature as
your source of inspiration. The universal scheme of all
things is layed out in nature and that is why it is so inspiring.
Will you ever get in touch with her? Yes! Every time you
feel the warmth of love. Whenever you feel the Sun on your
face, you will be close to her; whenever you lose yourself in
Richie, you will be close to her; whenever you are deeply
moved by a sweet, sad, or tender emotion, you will be close
to her. And thus, you will be celebrating her. All our souls
are made out of the same essence and each one is just living
a different love story.